While the prayers she tries to offer will not cleanse their dark, crazy, souls; I continue with my journey hoping the devils masked in angelic fervor die tragic deaths of shame, especially since the world conspires to expose their manipulative lie. And every week, a story of the truth prevails. [Lingo-lingo; paulit-ulit na lang ang kwento. Sa dami ng kasinungalingan, nakakatamad na.] Everyone hopes I end the ugliest chapter of my life. They all know the rotten mess that these people decided to put me into. Ending it entails a lot of change leading to the fact that I should recognise that these devils forgot about me and my feelings. A good point brought forward was that they both will always be egotistic beings masked like lovely humans, using the name of the L in vain [to hide their lies]. So isn’t it a fact that basically they broke the commandment and should not be tolerated for it as they consider this a “weakness”? And as a blessing after all the weeps and sips, the most logical way which I did was to say NO to the lie they put me into. Because in the end, they both made your life miserable making you THINK you made this mess WHEN YOU CAN’T. Because who was the flirt? A tease? You were not. S/he is. And a good way to continue with my travel is to recognise my strength through the power of the water. The water permeates all drama and will always be my refuge. And it also brought “them” back. I guess some things change to remove those who pin you down to die. I always say that it’s time to choose myself. And I did. I always do. Or atleast I try to. And as a resolution this week, I chose to ride the waves. [photomix: IP6s x A6000 x postedit to fit fs x attributes adjustment]
Walks and talks and happiness. Walls and stories. Catch-up’s and memories. Binge and unwind, smiles and stories. Devils and prayers for their burning souls. and my Guardian. Angel. [photo: by Trix; Postedit: IP6s x filters from Weebly]
Love, lies, and bleeding. He loves her lies. She loves her bleeding. Like any other lover in a sea, she cries, swimming. Drowning in better places; while The lies. and The bleeding. Debauch another soul, hurting.
... Love, cries, and healing. xxx [photomix: ip6s x bnw edit x various locations MLA | Rizal; sketch on a random sheet of paper by CDSNadal x bnw edit x original in blue] Strolls and stories at our favorite place.
The happier set. Bread x breakfast x church x movies x shopping x dinner = more healing for my soul ”Focus on life.” ”Focus on better people.” ”Focus on your healing.” ”Focus on things that make you happy.” Love. And Eat. The stigma of “hiding”. Because we always hide. and you love the lies. You do. And I don’t. I travel to places where I am happier. Because without you, I am happier here. Away from my constant nightmares. Away from the deceptions, away from the shadows. Relearning how to enjoy life with people who matter. And you’re prolly at your happiest again, hiding. Or convincing someone that you aren’t, but you are. That you enjoy the company of someone you find as the weakest in everything, and you say you don’t. But you do. And yes, A lie. Always. [Beautiful.bazziXcamilla] [Photo: Powerplant Chapel of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, 2018; taken using an ipad x bnw edit]
Probably the first place in the UK that made me as enthralled with its whitest landscape views. If you’re from the tropics, seeing this white wonderland was indeed the most fantastic experience! Of course, the feeling changed after several hours of driving in this scenic but literally white environment. And yeah, I got that. I can slightly remember the feelings that rushed in when I realised that during this time, I went wandering in the cold at the same time others wander in the heat of a fire, burning. Because when you left for the cold, a fire went burning, destroying everything you took care of. But I return to this white landscape as a symbolic trip to realise that the cold is good. And it will always be right. The serenity and the peace that you feel as you empty the insanity that took you away from your true self for n-years. And I say it again, The cold is always good. [photomix: D90; Highlands]
Some won’t see the constant pain in the cloud of happiness.
Others will probably feed on the thought that your pain will make you stronger (the antagonizers), and that you need to be in pain because they also are in pain (the victims), others choose to give you pain because they enjoy the thought of you being in pain (the devils). Some people are everything I stated above, usually masked with smiles in social media posts, or goody posts that they are not. So I removed that smiley [in my dp] because if you do the curated, i do the bespoke. And posting these terms because a person I know who has so many hate deep down, hate these terms as well. I call this, “Freedom of speech”. My blog of uncensored reality. [and that this person actually told me that a certain person is stupid, and this person made me feel stupid. Because if you can forget, I can not. and I remember the days it was pointed out how stupid this other person is. All the time. So good luck with your constant struggle in stupidity. And good luck with being with a person who thinks you are stupid. A warning. It may look good in the beginning, but wait when it goes rough and you become as stupid as it is.] A recent travel to the northern part of the city has actually led me to a proper discovery of the reality that I can never understand people (who chose to consistently break you just because they chose to be weak; choosing an uglier reality and they say it and know it but prefer this to appease the lies they’ve been holding in their mind) and that I can always be a Sad ghost [sad ghost club fan] traveling the unknown with the best people. The thing that made me travel and cry this week is probably the best thing for 2018. But beware. And I say beware because they know the people who constantly break me. And we are back. Traveling the world is fun. I’ll start of next week. I’ll just hit a milestone. add that fairy lights. listen to the Cheat Codes. and remember the days when you kept your mouth shut and your eyes open [from the truth]. Because behind all the lies are empty souls that destroy their own [credibility and peace of mind]. [Because love, you get your Thursday’s. And I have my Friday’s. And some other sweetheart on some other days. Woke up too late but worth it. I don’t want that routine anymore. Done.] Why Am I the One fun. [on repeat now] [photomix: ip6s x sa6000 x bnwedit x Freedom Ave Sesh | Edi Drink Sesh x ctto always meh]
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